Why so quiet, you ask?
I haven't been able to express myself in words just lately, nor have I wanted to.
And now I understand why!
I hit a big flashing light realization just recently whilst having a conversation about spirituality.
The lady I was chatting with was a Reiki master, and she was talking about how we throw words up in front of us to try and project who we are and what we mean to say, and how our true essence is behind the veil of words. It rang so true and helped explain something I've been feeling for a while but wasn't able to find the words for!.
As a writer, I have become a mistress of words, weaving them this way and that, using them to help me to distill feelings, thoughts and experiences. Making the illogical logical, the irrational, rational. Making neat and tidy things which are wild and spill out over the lines.
I've been trying to make sense of the mysteries of life with words. But I realise how inadequate this is!
We simply cannot express everything with words, nor understand everything using words or explain them using words. Some things cannot be explained.
Some things are meant to be a mystery.They are meant to be illogical. They are meant to be elusive.
For they are bigger than us.
Words are from the head.
And just lately, my heart has really taken over doing all the thinking around here. I am feeling and processing from a different place.
Words are guff!
They are black and white, not multicoloured. They don't even touch the ultra violet colours on the spectrum!
So please excuse the silence, but don't take it as anything bad - I am simply feeling life with my heart right now and swimming around in the enjoyment of not writing, not trying to distill things, not trying to pin down shadows, not trying to catch butterflies.
Simply breathing, feeling, enjoying, tasting, loving, smelling, and living life to the full.
Are you feeling life with your heart, or has your head taken over?
Give your head a holiday and just feel.
" The quieter you become the more able you are to hear "
Can you hear it? Can you feel life?
Isn't it just fucking beautiful?